Uh, that was an incredibly long break. I was too grumpy to write for three whole months.
There's no sense in trying to recap all of summer. I basically drove to soccer 4 nights a week, caught a cold in May and kept it, lost my sense of smell, babysat a couple of days a week, sent the girls to Girl Scout camp, stayed up too late every night, and tried to keep up with Kevin and the kids and their outdoor lifestyle. Sometimes during quiet moments, I'd think of something to write here... and then not write it.
The grumpiness comes from not having the freedom an income brings. I've been stringing along on the stay-at-home-mom circus for nine years... I've of course loved being able to share my kids' lives - but they're rapidly approaching the Really Expensive Stage, and I just want to make things better, to contribute, to make my own decisions about money... to not feel so desperately vestigial.
School registration is in four days, school actually starts in fourteen days! I know Kira will be just fine... Remy will have a freakin blast in preschool... but I worry and worry about Taia. Middle school brings with it the fresh horror of mean girls with better clothes and spidery networks of frenemies. My sweet, scrawny superbrain-girl could just get crushed, and I'm scared at the same time I'm excited for her to be where she is in life.
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